am just listn’ng to this Blue October’s song.. ;c

Hate Me

I have to work up thoughts of you,
So I don’t lose my head
You’re crawling like a cockroach
leavin’ babies in my bed
drivin’ little reels of tape
to remind me that i’m alone
playin’ movies in my head
that make a porner feel like home
there’s a burning in my pride
a nervous believing in my brain
an ounce of peace is all I want for you
will you never call again?
and will you never say that you love me
just to put it in my face?
will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today

Hate me tommorrow
Hate me so you can finally
see whats good for you

I’m sober now
the three-hole
its one accomplishment
that you help me with
the one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing I won’t touch again in my sick way
I wanna thank you
for holding my head up late at night
while I was busy raging wars on myself
you were trying to stop the fight
you never doubted my warped opionion
on things like scuicidal hate
you made me compliment myself
when it was way to hard to take
So I’ll drive so far away
that I’ll never cross your mind
and we’ll do whatever it takes in your heart
to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tommorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See whats good for you

And by the sad, hard ways
say why to you and when
kicking shadows on the street
for every mistake that I had made
When I saw your blue eyes cry
and I held your face in my hand
and in the sad hard ways
I’ll make you go away
just make a smile
come back and shine
just like it used to be
and as a whisper now
can you do the street

Hate me today
Hate me tommorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
see whats good for you